Gym Fugitive

Yeah, so I accidentaly fell asleep instead of going out today. I did order my groceries online so I have food now but obviously I didn't get any exercise. Oh well, I'm counting this as a free day since it's Sunday anyway and too late to do anything now - there weren't even classes at the gym this afternoon. I'm still in pain, and I probably look really funny when i try to stand up and walk after sitting for a while :P

I'm going through the schedule for the week and writing down exactly which class I'm taking and at what time. Tomorrow looks good (assuming I can wake my lazy ass up) -- I'm doing Streching (at 8:30 in the morning! lol) which I really need considering how tight my muscles feel, then Express Core, Express Abs, Hips Abs & Thighs, Core Pilates, and an aerobics class. The only thing that freaks me out whenever I get into these workout obsessed modes is that the trainers will notice and think I'm a crazy freak.

In fact I was thinking about this yesterday too. Did you ever notice how sometimes there are like the really atheltic crazy muscular women who probably only ever wear workout clothes and have serious man issues, and they always know absolutely every trainer and they are always front and center in all the classes, and they basically do ALL the classes and they are always chugging protien shakes?? And like, they're thin but not really because everything has sort of reversed and started pushing itself back out and they've gone past being thin and into being bodybuilders, and for some reason they're usually over 40 (or look it anyway). Anyway, nobody ever says anything about these women, like i said they're like bff with any and all gym personel.

But I know that as soon as I start doing more than a couple classes all of a sudden the trainers will "take notice". I even got really paranoid about that yesterday because something really wierd happened. I met the trainer in my first class, the dance aerobics. Anyway, when we got out I actually wanted to go into yoga class after, but he had seen me doing cardio before his class too and then i still wanted to do the pilates later and since he was standing by the studio I decided not to draw too much attention to myself the first day and skipped the yoga. I went to the info desk to ask the girl if the pool was open and she told me to talk to the membership people.

When I came back from talking to them, the trainer was talking to the girl at the info desk and left when he saw me, then she asked me if they helped (all they did was tell me it wasn't open yet) and then -- here's where it gets weird -- she was like "lemme write down your name, what was it again?" and i was all "oh that's okay they helped" and she insisted and said she would pass it on to thier supervisor or something. WTF?!?! She's going to "pass on" that I was wondering if the pool is open?!?!?! So she actually wrote down my name (of course I gave it to her, i didn't want her to really think i'm insane). But i'm pretty sure it actually had something to do with the trainer.

I doubt he recognized me from anywhere and even if he did it wouldn't matter people much more important than me are all members to that gym. And I'm really sure he wasn't interested in me sexually because i'm pretty sure he's gay and that's no way to pick someone up anyway. Why wouldn't he just ask me my last name? Plus I have my trainer, who sees how much cardio I do from my program sheet plus she teaches some of the classes too. So I'm totally paranoid now that they're keeping watch on me or something. Oh well, what will they do gimme an intervention? I paid for my membership goddammit! I'm gonna make it worth every penny! Lol...

All I'm saying is that I feel like right now I'm all suspicious because I'm like a fat girl working out. I'm a prime target for the words "we think she has a problem". But if I was all skinny hell i could sleep there and stick my finger down my throat while running on the treadmill and they still wouldn't say anything.

So yeah it's so great I have this gym to fill my days instead of working lol. Hopefully we can get this fashion show thing so that I can actually make some money instead of just spending it. in fact it's probably better for me economically that i'm insecure about my body right now because i hate shopping for clothes (so i don't) and my decreased social life means i go out less too. I just keep dreaming about the day when I'l be thin and have money :)

Sooo Tired

Dammit! Weighed in today at 65.2, still not to 64 :( I woke up at 1, which is guess is kinda normal considering how totally wiped out I was last night. I'm sooo freakin tired today, my whole body hurts even when I don't move. I don't care I'm happy I worked out so much. The only probably is I'm finding it hard to actually move my ass and get out of the house today. Oh well, another hour and then I'll go back to the gym, stop at the store for some groceries, since now I basically have just juice. That's about it for now, nothing new to tell.

Great Success

Oh my god I can't believe what I did today. So I packed my stuff and left the house at like, a quarter to 10. I walked to the gym, which is a pretty steep uphill 20 minute walk, plus I was carrying all my stuff including my other shoes, clothes, shampoo/lotion etc. and 2 1.5liter bottles full of juice. So I was already sweating by the time i got to the gym. I did 30 minutes of cardio on the machines, then I did an hour dance aerobics class. After that, I chilled for about 2 hours at the cafe (having only my juice), and then I did 30 minutes more of cardio. After that I did an hour of pilates, which hella hurt after all that other stuff. So basically, it was like 4 when I was done working out. then my sports-journalist friend called me to come hang out, and I said okay. So i did 20 minutes in the sauna, then showered and changed and walked an hour and a half to meet him (still carrying a bunch of stuff, btw.)

So what you see here, is that if you total the classes, the cardio, and the straight walking i totalled about 5 hours of exercise today!!! Plus I was on a juice fast. By the time it was 8 I was pretty much completely dizzy and feeling totally drunk and he wanted to take me to dinner and I said no that I was on a juice fast and when he found out about that with the exercise (he called when I was at the gym, and he knew I walked to meet him) he basically wouldn't take no for an answer. We ended up going to an italian restaraunt and I had some pasta with cheese/cream sauce and salmon. But I only ate half of the plate, which was small to begin with.

So I did last all day and finally messed up the diet at night, but seriously I felt so funky. I can't even describe it. I wasn't hungry at all, I'm still not and I got full really fast at dinner, but I think that a juice fast on top of all that exercise was stupid on my part. In fact I hear you're supposed to take it easy physically on the days that you fast so that you will be less likely to need to eat something.

Oh well, I'm more focused now on the working out, since I've actually been losing weight with my regular diet anyway but i need to exercise and walk more to get really toned and actually burn fat. I just weighed-in when I got home, and even though it's night-time and I'm swollen from all that exercise and I just ate, I still weighed-in at 65.9, so that's some indication that I'll probably be under 65 tomorrow (i hope i hope i hope). I'll see how the next few days go with major working-out and my normal diet. If I feel like I've really hit a block, then I'll try again with the fasting, only not so much over-doing the physical stuff too next time!

By the way, I should mention how I am in SO MUCH PAIN right now. I just nibbled on the end of a protien bar to at least help my muscles rebuild overnight. Every part of my body hurts, especially from carrying around my stuff too. Every time I move i hear something different pop :P I need sleep!!!