RIP Bunny, I love you

This morning bunny died :( I'm devestated. I don't know why, he would get into absolutely everything, and I think he ate some wax from a candle and it poisoned him. He was fine, then all of a sudden he got really quiet and wierd. And then he got almost paralyzed like he was just limp, and then i had him in my hands and he started spasming (by this time i was freaking out getting ready to run out the door to go to the vet) and then he just died. It was soooo sad. Of course I cried uncontrollably, Red came over and buried him for me. I really miss him. The house seems so quiet and lonely now without him.

I also didn't get to work out today as a result, but it's okay I really didn't have much to eat either. On a positive note, we were asked to do the press invites for a publicity event tomorrow. It's for a new ad campaign with a famous pop singer in it and they called back again saying that they needed two girls to welcome the guests and pass out the vip gifts etc, and since there's some extra cash in it too Red said I should be one of the girls. Which also means I get to meet the singer!! I'm so excited, I just wish I was 5 kgs. thinner. Of course then I would be doing even better actual modelling jobs but I'm hating the fact that the other girl is a model and thinner than me and I have to be in front of everyone and meeting the singer looking like this. I kept telling Red that I'm only doing it cause I could use the money but that he shouldn't use me because I'm his girlfriend but to make and honest decision about whether i'm decent enough to do the job or not. He seems to think I am, I don't feel the same way but oh well. Anyway, I'm excited so I guess I'll go to the gym tomorrow morning, tan, come home a do my hair. I'll just pack my clothes and makeup cause it'll be better to get ready there.

Wish me luck!!

I've been a good girl again, I actually went to the yoga and bosu classes. I didn't do the hour of cardio because it was already getting late and I still had to walk back home. So the walk was about 45 minutes (I went fast today), the yoga was an hour and 15, the bosu was an hour, so I got about 3 hours in again today. I just had some plain salad, no meat or carbs or anything, when I can home and I think I'll have some fruit and a piece of cheese now.

By the way, I notice that this happens a lot when people start working out a lot; while normally we're supposed to be on a diet and exercising, the working out makes us think "oh, I guess I can eat that too, I've earned it," but this is totally wrong. Don't let yourselves cheat by making excuses. Just the opposite, I always try to think "man, i just busted my ass for 3 hours, I don't want it to have all been for nothing. I'll just cancel it out and it will have been a waste if i eat this now". When you work out that much and then eat what you want, you'll only break even. So you may not gain weight, but you won't lost it either.

Anyway, another ex-boyfriend called again today. Also wanting to take me away for a weekend. I told him I have a boyfriend. He said to just not tell my boyfriend about it, and that he promised he wouldn't be bad. Liar :) Don't worry, I would never do that.

I was actually planning on writing more, but it's too late now and I'm sleepy. Goodnight...